a day of hope..

it was THE day..i was still in bed…”eeewwww…4hrs to go!!!,” i can’t  hide my nervousness…its been days that i m covered with tense and jumpy feeling…”cepat la habis bende2 ni…horror horror..,” i force myself to get out of bed…mmm..i was a lil frustrated..  i planned to get up early and prepare for the day…but ,it was quater to 9 am…
mm..maybe good breakfast will make my day…i walked to the kitchen and poured half a bowl of Alpen’s muesli …while waiting my muesli to get soggy in LFM, i had a slice of Lemon marmalade toast…with another hand holding the Astro remote, i try to search any channel with morning news..just to have my brain freshen up with current issues beside the inauguration of Barrack Hussein Obama =”) “mmm..they might ask me about the current issues in the world..,” i have a wild guess…or maybe …”tell me about urself…or, why should we hire you..or ,what is your current role?what is your strength??..,” i cant stop guessing the questions that will comes from the interviewer..i tried to concentrate on the company profile….mmm…can i do this? its totally gonna be a different field from what i am doing now..i dun know what is the main reason for me to leave..i love what i m doing now..it just, i am underpay..but i always thot job satisfaction comes first..“hey gal, u know why you have to leave..u promise her..u gotto start a new life..earn more..u deserve better..,” the tensi voice calming me down..i close my eyes and focus on what i want to achieve for the day..
its 10 am…..i quickly step in the shower… i need to rush myself to Amber to get her to shampoo & blow dry my hair..well, i decided not to do it myself..i wanna stay calm and relax before the ‘question war’..hhehee…while Amber was shampooing me…my nyawa2 ikan Sony Ericsson vibrated…I asked Amber to stop..”hello..” “hello, I am Khalija from XXX…I just want to confirm if u r coming for today’s interview at 1?”’ “Yes, I ll be at Sheraton at 1..thank you” dup dup dup dup duppp…hehhe…I can hear my own heart beat…bingai….Amber finished in half an hour…nice timing for me to go back and dress up for the interview…I picked my favorite black DP trousers and new white shirt… mmm…”I look boring,” looking myself in the mirror..i picked a black  H&M with thin white stripe vest to have a smart executive look…hehhee..i spent to much time reading “interview preparation-leave a good impression…dress well” I think what the website said was true..when u dress well…u walk straight..u stay calm and smile..u ll make urself confident and become positive and enthusiastic..errr…jangan aku over sudah … ;p
I was a bit early….i had to wait for more than 30 minutes before the lady hand me a form to fill up…she might be Khalija..ye la, she told me they will be having lunch break between 12-1..ade 3 org je dalam waiting room tu…2 others were older guys…both were from O&G…hehhe…abiss la aku…
I was then guided to Johor Room for the interview session…fuh fuh…In the name of Allah, the Most Merciful, the Most Kind..i walked in…there were 4 gentlemen in informal attire standing welcoming me..opss…adakah aku over dress?tak la..what are they doing here with jeans and shirt?? :p anyway, it was like I expected it to be…they were trying to rip me off with all the tough not technical questions…they want to know how convincing I am  to switch from current enjoyable field to the poyo O&G…heheh…I wonder why they would ask question like.. if you were a tree..what tree would u wanna be? Cute ey? I said I wanna be a baobab tweeee..because it gigantic and strong..and can live for thousand of yearsss….hehheh…well, it was definitely not a true or false question..so, my answer can be anything right?? Well, Reind said he would go for pokok pisang…bleh guna every part of the pokok for living ..as in.. berguna kepada masyarakat..errr…not sure about the last remark tho …hahahha…or being a pokok duit2..because living as parasite is good.. ;p bingai…but, a good one ..after hearing his answer..i think my baobab was boringgg..hahha…but I think he is suitable being a pokok cendana…ye la…cendana tu balak yg teguh berdiri…macam degill je…hahhaha….
1hr 30minutes gone…and I m done!! Heheh…it was the longest interview I ever had..mm, btol la kot, its not easy to join O&G…anyway, I ve done my best…I just have to wait and pray =”)
mmmmm….how if I got it? Is my life gonna change? Am I gonna be super busy? Deeerrr….baru 5 minit lepas interbiu, I already asking myself about the future life if I got the job….perasaaannn…tak dapat baru tau…to stop myself from worrying stupid stuff…I decided to pamper myself at Artistic, SS15..Larissa is Russian..she s married to a Chinese guy and they run this beauty studio together..after I know Artistic, I dun rush myself to Bangsar anymore for treading, waxing, eyelash curling blabla bla …hehehhe…I think Artistic is better than other beauty studio in Bangsar…a lil expensive..but worth paying for the service you get =”) after 2 hrs at Artistic, I head to buy Yu Tiao (kueh Cakoi tu…) before pushing off to Summit ..i ve been promisisng K.Sherry to ambik the supplement weeks ago..hehehe…mesti dah basi supplement tu :p… It’s been a while since I walk and do stuff all alone ….terasa macam kat Uni dulu2 plak..heheeh..mmm..i m losing my frenss…ye la, what to expect at this age? :p
suddenly I feel so lonely….call Yan la..see if she s free after work to teman me for kopi & roti baker at Pappa… i am hoping and pray, I ll be hearing a good respond from them..to start a new beginning …..

“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over…I am sorry…all I can do to help is this..new place..new beginning..”

 

p/s: (2 days later…) cik Reind, I got the job!!!! hehehhe

hapi new year for crabbie & horsie ?

Happy Ma’al Hijrah & Happy New Year everyone!! Hope it’s gonna be a good year ahead for us =”)

p/s: My trip was amazing!!! lalalallaaa~

 

Cancer 2009   

 

2009 is time to make a fresh start in the right direction, Cancer. You could experience life as you have never imagined and love every minute of it. In love and sex, you will be smiling more than in previous years. 2009 promises thrills, adventure and sexual excitement with regards to love and sex. As good as this appears, you must also be willing to let go of the past and jump into your future before someone else steals your lover or your chance. Don’t let love escape when it’s this close to you. You may find yourself suddenly up close and personal with a Leo, Libra or Capricorn and fall in love. You may also meet an Aquarius or an Aries who can and will change your life for the better.

This year will test your personal strength and bring pressures to your love and career relationships. Don’t let this throw you off balance because if you play your cards face up, you will always be rewarded and considered honest and fair. Remember how small the world is and treat others, as you would have them treat you. You could be working with the one you love or you could get involved in a passionate office romance that may lead to marriage. There are aspects that combine work with love throughout the year.

There could be interference with hidden enemies in this year. Watch for the signs of Gemini, Sagittarius and Pisces to throw you a romantic curveball, especially during February, July or November. Anything that is dazzling or glamorous will seduce you in 2009. You may be surprised at the compliments and personal attention you receive from those sexy people this year. You could be the most glamorous person at any party you attend this year. You will be extremely attractive to members of the opposite sex all year. Be careful with this sexuality you possess, Cancer. Realize that people are talking about you, especially during July and August.

There will be a chance to correct past romantic mistakes in summer if you want to. The best time for single Cancers to find true love will be in November. Married Cancers will make more money together this year but one possible glitch may occur where each other’s schedules are concerned. Months to pay special attention to are March, August and October. One of you may have to be out of town alone during a critical time or vice versa. Aspects for married Cancers indicate brief separations followed by intense reunions. The strongest relationships and most meaningful will survive and endure during this ongoing drive.

During October, November and December, surprises and shake-ups will produce excellent results in sex and love. You will be turned on by your progress in both personal and professional associations. As good as it gets, it’s only going to get better. People love and adore your sincerity ~ http://www.findyourfate.com/astrology/year2009/

Horse 2009

For the Horse, the year of the Ox brings a number of options and therefore you should be careful about which ones you choose. The type of opportunities that come your way could bring about some big changes in your life and these will of course affect your family. There may be a house move or a change in your career. New doors open up for you but don’t feel that you have to go through the first one. There will be others. Take your time about making your choices otherwise you might find yourself going from one set of circumstances to a similar set that do not improve anything when you had hoped to make life easier. Remember that not all changes will bring progress.

Beginning of the Year

Because you are trying to bring about improvements, there may be less chance to spend time with those who are closest to you. Also, the expenses involved in some changes might not be what you expected. You could find yourself paying out more than you had planned and this brings the need to budget very wisely. You see the sense of moving with the times and getting up to date with technological changes but the same cannot be said of someone you work or live with. They are doing their best to hold you back and you know this won’t do your future prospects any good in the long-run. However, don’t be too quick to instigate change. Your first ideas may not be the best ones so give yourself the chance to look around and find inspiration from other places before you make alterations to your own little world. Likewise if you feel someone is making changes that will affect you, be sure they get your approval. The first three months of the year are not a time to force issues. But do keep an eye on what those around you are up to so you can nip anything you aren’t keen on, in the bud.

Relationships

Between April and June, you might feel a strong desire to keep certain affairs in your life secret from others. You will be a little reluctant to discuss your views, perhaps because you can’t work out your true feelings yourself. Someone might, however, take this the wrong way, thinking that you are deliberately trying to deceive them. Explain that you are not yet clear in your own mind what your plans and opinions happen to be and therefore it is difficult to put your thoughts into words.

Family and Working Life

Both at home and at work, during the latter half of the year, you should insist on taking a methodical approach to your usual chores. Take no notice of any high flier ideas or of suggestions to cut corners. In all areas of life, aim to play safe as it is not the time for taking risks. Remember, too, to be careful about making changes. It could be the case of out of the frying pan and into the fire if you act on impulse. There is a need to step into new areas with the utmost caution.

End of the Year

Towards the very end of the year, you might also have a confession to make to someone you live with. If you realize you have jumped to one too many conclusions and this has needlessly upset someone, don’t wait too long to make amends. Otherwise the chance will be past and gone. Get your apologies over with and this will help smooth the way to a better understanding during the last two months of the year. ~ http://astrology.suite101.com/

tales from the woods

the skies were clear and blue…gunung dato’ here i comeee…after 1 1/2 hrs driving from a hectic hutan batu, we were approching the calming realll hutan =”) it was 10.00am, the weather is good..no sign of bad gloomy clouds..mmm..can i do it? i have left this climbing activity for more than 3 years…but lately i think i shud start climbing again..entering fee is RM3/person (they use the fee for maintaining the place)..after pay the fee, we start our mission..we were welcome by a small waterfall and river..after crossing the small old wooden bridge, we were entering the mysterious woods..“in the name of God,most Gracious,most Compassionate”, i make my first step into the woods…

the route was very challenging..the ground was muddy and slippery..it has been raining almost everyday..and all i had to do was climb climb climb..heheh..menguji stamina betol! after half way into the woods..”sayang, bile nak sampai peak ni?”, he was wet sweating..”awak penat eh?ehehhe..sikitt lagi k..”, i know he was worried about me..”mmm..life is like climbing a mountain kan? you know what ur target is..u thot its just a lil bit more to the top..but its not..if u give up, u not gonna see what is waiting at the peak..if sabar n usaha lagi, u will be there..sooner or later”, suddenly i comes out with the philosopy..thot he will laugh..but..”ye la..now i know why people choose to climb..we were provided with path..there is no rule..nak lari ke, nak jalan ke..the main point is to get to the peak..”, he sounds serious..”kan..on the way to the peak..sometimes it just a normal flat ground..sometimes it steep and dangerous..pokok duri2..batu tajam..wet & slippery ground..but it all depends on us how to deal with the obstacles.. desicion making is important too…different people..different way..” “kalau i cabut tapak kasut ni tadi..maybe its gonna be harder for me to get to the peak..but i choose to tied it up with getah ikat rambut, so dat i can be with u up there at the top..heheh..,” i continue while checking on the getah rambut tied on my right shoe..he  was biting his wet t-shirt and smile..”eeeeeee..masinnn!!”, he complained..”hahhahaha”, we laughed and continue climbing..

belom ke?penat..lapa..lapa..i mumbling alone..hoping he does not hear me..he will get worried if he does..i pun kuat tau :p bekkkk..hehehe..i choose different trail from him which i think it was easier for me..”sometime people choose a different path on the way, buttt ..eventually they will meet at the same point ..”, he said and holds my hand when we suddenly meet at one narrow muggy point..i was suprised..he was still thinking about the silly philosophy of mine? he couldnt be serious? hehehhe..but, i am happy at least he agreed…

after 2 1/2 hrs..we were on the highest point of Gunung Dato’..”yeay!!”, i jumped with joy..”honey, we make it to the top..i couldnt make it if not because of you..”, my warm  lil heart crying softly.. it was so beautiful, stunning scenery..everything from 2900 feet above sea level seems verrry small..hehhe..it was sunny and bright and i could clearly see the Pekan Rembau and the panoramic view of Straits of Melaka..subhanallah.. mmm..the best part of the trek is at the peak la..no muddy ground..no tall trees and bushy thorny pokoks..it was formed by several gigantic granite boulders..mcm mana batu ni susun2 mcm ni..kagum!…it was so nice to be up here..far from everybody..far from everything…only me and him..as i was capturing the beautiful moment at the summit, my ears were poked by his phone..lerrrr..tempat cam ni pun ada line ke??i hate advance telecommunication!! can i jump ?hoping to hit on one of the gigantic rocks..mmm…i can see me broke into pieces…please pick up all my shreded meat and burry it save..tiba2..teringat advertisment si gundut kuning..hehhe…funny Digi advert =P

looking up west the black clouds were  spreading..time to get down..i start to walk to the edge..mmm..”macam mana i naik tadik?boleh turun ke?”, hands on my head..worried to go down..there were a few rungs of  old scary metal ladder tied up with rope. .cess..tadi beria2 nak terjun ;p bekkk … after 225 times of Bismillah I finally step down on the flat ground…thank you for your support, cheeky monkey =”) it was easier on the way down…i just need to be extra careful as my right tapak kasut was supported with a rubber band..each time we passed one challengging route, we stopped and looked back..”mmmm…tengok tu, very steep..we managed to go up eh tadi..”, he said…and i continue the philosophy alone…”on the way achieving your goal..don’t look back, coz it might stop u..when u got to the peak and achieved it…dont forget your past and history..always  remember the difficulties and obscurities you’ve gone thru..InsyaAllah, you will be more thankful and learn to appreciate life more..The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination…the end…”, i smile…after 2hrs with jungle ants bites, leech bite and present from thorny palm..we were back to where we started… i feel more energetic, brave and fearless to face the terrifying evil world…

p/s: sayang, life is like climbing a mountain..to get through the hardest journey we need take only one step at a time, but we must keep on stepping  =”)