drag me to hell

I dun know why I am writing here, it feels like waste of time. Pretty much how my life is anyway… a big waste of time. But I dun have anyone to talk to…I usually keep things inside because I believe people dun really care about much anyway other than to feel superior when someone else has problems. I never trusted people much anyway, lets face it people have instincts as much as animals, they will cut your throat to save there hide in most cases.
All my life I have never been ‘real’ happy or able to cope well adversity…after years and years fighting with life I am still single, empty and alone…mmmm…I have always been considered attractive by the opposite sex (or even the same sex..har har)..always got the 2^nd, 3^rd, 4^th glances…but…unfortunately relationship would never work out for me…I have spent all of my teenage and adult life just searching…seeking..hunting ….for way to improve myself…
As I think back…I now realize my brain never functioned correctly…in school I remember being confused and dreadful at remembering…concentrating and focusing tho always fairly intelligent…
My self esteem began to drop even before I knew what the word meant.. my childhood was not blissful as others…too sad to think of…which added salt to my wounds… all along I pretended to be normal and fit in even though I knew something was not quite right… At the time I thought the wrongness was outside and my surroundings, some probably were, but I was mostly wrong on the inside. Thinking back I was what could have been a hotrod but I was always a V-8 running 2 cylinders, mentally tired confused and depressed…I now assume I had/have depression ..mental disorder or maybe schizophrenia…all things around me just made me tired, irritable..hopeless and eventual thots of suicide…thank God, He still make me think twice each time the s.u.i.c.i.d.e word dancing in my mind…
mmm…financially & job wise I am ok..Relationship wise my life has been hell…especially now..i am really in a deep shit…I am numb inside out…after all I still couldn’t figure out why I am still here…
This entire thing has made me tired, very tired. My life is really quite hopeless now, I expect little or nothing from it now, I have nothing to offer it now and it has little to offer me. I feel I have been ripped off in this life. All my life has been a struggle, it feels like God has always had his foot on my throat to assure me I won’t be getting up and moving on in this life… If there were any cliffs around I sometimes feel I could muster the courage to just open her up feeling the rush of speed and riding it off the cliff, other times I wish I could get smacked by a car and just be killed instantly. At other times I feel I may be forced to just put a bullet in my head….but, I am a survivor (well..that what I want to believe..)…and I know God wont let me die easily… He want me to learn…Learn to decide….

a violent affair

He taunts her
He haunts her
Causing her so much pain

Love is a gift
Not a weapon …
She can’t see that
She clings in hope…

Love is blind they say
But I didn’t realize
What they meant
Until today….

Anguish, anxiety and anger
Is all they can create between them ..

As she wipe away the tears
She can still feel the pain
What is this need to punish her
Over and over again?

He promised to protect her
But she can only wonder why
The same hand that embraces her
Is the same that makes her cry. …

tranquilizer needed

” Well,
How do I interprate this? I have a few plans la  in my head..Buy the I-phone..some gifts for u to bring to ******..Join u in ****** in july….spend the rest of our pityful life together..
Looks like my tought all this while is true all along
Well…Takpela, as far as I understand….im giving u more pain than our love could ever heal..Instead of hapiness im giving u only misery….that is not what I want the person whom I love most to live her life..This is who I am….full of baggage…I cant change that
If you think we should end this, then ill wait for u at **** this evening
And I shall leave…I will only leave after I meet u and say it to you face to face….
We are no little kids that just walk away like that
…I want to spend the rest of my life with you….that is y u saw all sides of me that nobody else see….Who I am inside out….How I let myself be affected by u with the smallest things….coz the love is too much
Ntah…wish we could continue…but only if it brings good especially to you
If its too complicated..just say it and im gone
Dahla enuf said…ill just wait how it goes this evening

 Btw…I m now single but with a beautiful son….just so that u know

 Love u always, ***** “

my help-line indicator is beeping…i dun need any explanation..nor i need any words from him…i dun mind anything he have to deal with…i feel numb inside out..Friday tested my patient … i dun know him anymore… i dun know what he needs from me…i turned down my welcome party last Friday…that was the 2nd arrangement…i turned down the 1st one last month..they were so frustrated with me…but well…i dun believe it either…thot he might understand that i m with gigantic international company now…mmm…dun think this is the point why m ignoring him…
lalalala…lemme think why …mmmm….

he never trust me..ever…and that s killing me…thot that was the main reason of the wrecking marriage…and why he s doing this to me?  what is the point of telling me how much he loves and care for me, when he have to be aggrasive each time he is cross? what is all the smacking, squeezing, crunching, gripping,throwing things are all about? is this the same person i know 2 yrs back?
 yes..it is hurt sometimes…but, each time it s happening… i will drift away in my own world thinking of how sick the relationship turn out to be…and how my existance have been affecting his behaviour…he s a good guy really…but, now i dun think i know him anymore….we talked about this before…but nothing have change…i feel fear, disgust, puzzle…would he change?change for his wife..and most important change for his son…i know he will never do this to his wife…mmm…but,why me then?  should i believe him when he promise not to do it again?dozen and dozen of question dancing in my mind..
anyway, i ll be leaving somewhere near north  pole in 2 wks time…hope  my brain will be frozen…and leaving all these bad incidents behind and wish that my body starting to rejuvenate me inside out…i pray and hope the very best for all of us…can’t think of this for another beat..God, please help me one more time….

battlefield by jordy

“Don’t try to explain your mind
I know what’s happening here
One minute it’s love
And suddenly it’s like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world’s nothing when you don’t
I’m not here without a shield
Can’t go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like..

Can’t swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can’t surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don’t wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? 

I guess you better go and get your armor, get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor,  get your armor
I guess you better go and get your…

We could pretend that we are friends tonight
And in the morning we’ll wake up and we’ll be alright
Cause baby we don’t have to fight
And I don’t want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor…

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don’t even know what we’re fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor,  get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like…
Why does love always feel like…
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don’t even know
What we’re fighting for

I never meant
to start a war
Don’t even know
What we’re fighting for”

i need aspirin

“Now that it’s all said and done,..I can’t believe you were the one…To build me up and tear me down,..Like an old abandoned house…What you said when you left…Just left me cold and out of breath….I fell too far, was in way too deep…Guess I let you get the best of me…” arrrghhh…i heard my phone, but i guess my sleep is much more important…”

I grabbed my phone and put it in silent mode…It was him…”sorry sayang, I don’t think I want to talk,” I whisper to myself…I know he will hate it if I don’t answer.. But..what to do? (heheee..my boss fav line)..welllll, i think it is safer for my soul if I don’t pick up the phone….

Ok…tell me what to do if your bf is actually a married guy with a kid?? Anybody out there??helllloooo???well…I dun know what to do…one day i wake up and feel  I am the luckiest girl on earth to be loved by Captain Jack Sparrow..i was in cloud nine until I was smacked down flat by  the fact..the whole ship is sinking…and I am drowning…I dun blame Captain Jack Sparrow if he doesn’t save me…I know where I am standing…I would prefer to be drowned and eaten by a Great White Shark rather than being save by a mystify pirate….my heart stop beating…my bones were crumpled.. my flesh was shredded…I start to question God why I was tested this way? All thru these years, I am trying to find someone who can make my day bright and sunny , my nite twinkling and starry … and I end up with this??

Knowing I am the kekasih gelap is not simple as I thot..it is painful…knowing you are the second priority is even sad…knowing his wife is picking up on you and swearing u and ur whole generation is even more heart throbbing…but, again… I know where I am standing….and who care about the 3^rd party anyway….right?? the 3^rd party is always the one left to be blame…who be bothered with things which ‘might’ already happen in the marriage at the first place? People will still charge the 3^rd party as the ‘reason’ eventho people been talking about the trophy wife for 3 thousand century before….and being involve in this make me a philosopher..a thinker…a dreamer..i come out with lots of plans…for me…and for the couple…I am always ready to give up my ‘love’ for the sake of the kid…after all, who am I to ruin the beautifool marriage? It is still acceptable if you are flirting around with 7000 single guy….sleeping around..taking drugs…being drunk..watch  prono..bully…stealing…being pervert…bank robbery..neglect ur God…but NEVER ever being in love with a married man..…that is the World’s rule of thumb….the damages will be so massive that nobody will ever want to get involve in this…

I never thot I will be in this ‘attention-grabbing’ situation … but, what had happen is out of my control…nobody enjoy being in this kind of situation..nobody want to be blame of ruining somebody else marriage…nobody like losing…and nobody love being call a bitch, whore or mistress….it worse when u have nobody to talk to…i have the whole world against me…including my friends…well, I can understand why…5 of my friends got divorced because of the 3^rd person….i dun blame anybody….and I dun blame myself like I used to..on the positive side…there must lie a reason why …. Regardless, the bitterness happiness or sadness in the end…He must have some good plan of letting this thing happen…

Don’t accuse me of not doing anything to stop this crap…yes, I had discuss with the guy of giving his marriage a second chance….and forget about me…yes, I met his wife and discussing the same thing…we were all agreed that what had happen was just a test of how we can deal with life…but, after nearly 2 yrs…we are still in the same loop…I know and I am aware of her feeling…I m not dumb…I still remember how my mom gone thru the same thing…but, she settled it in a very calm and cool way…she never accused anyone…she never swear anyone…she never blame anyone…she was so firmed of the decision she made…and I wonder why…I am still in the loop…?? I try and try to get away…I changed my car…I quit my job…I changed number…and i will do anything to get them back together…but, they have to cooperate…nothing will change if I didn’t get any cooperation from them…leave me alone…coz I am willing to let go…although, this is the greatest love I ever have…but, I for the sake of world peace and the kid..i am letting it go…

Mom said….she would rather having me rotten dead without a husband than having to accept me marrying somebody else husband…I did question her, how if it s a fate and my destiny? She said…no such thing as that and she want me to stop..because she believe I doing it for revenge ..revenge ??mmmm…I dun know about that…dad said nothing….i guess I know why…mom is losing weight…she is not happy..she s been thinking too much about me…she afraid if somebody will hurt me in anyway…but, I never tell her anything bad…I tell her everything s fine and under control…its hurt to see her tears…I am sorry mom…

When to think about this forbidden love … if I know things will turn out sour..i will stop it from the beginning..but, nobody know what is waiting in the future…I dun even know I will end up falling in love with Captain Jack Sparrow who turn out to be somebody else husband…but, trust me..it s no fun…u are having a forbidden relationship and u have to cover it alllll the way…u r not having a real boyfriend girlfriend relationship where u can express your love anywhere u like…or go and explore the world together peacefully ..or holding hand in public…shopping??watch movie?? Don’t think about it…but, the love that I believe in is the only element that bonding me….and keeping me in one piece still…but again, I am willing with all my heart to let it go…I know I dun deserve this….i need support and cooperation from them both…maybe I should run away so, nobody could find me and stop blaming me…and go on with life? It is way too complicated for me now…..

Yes….i need aspirin…Khaliff, mama needs you….

macam mana kalau…?

ye…macam mana kalau:

1- you resign from you lovely job for a better pay…but later, you find out you dun like your new job?
2- you bought a car and after a month you regret of buying it
3- suddenly you thought of settling down…huhahahha
4- you were left out by ur ‘fwens’
5- you were broke 3 months in a row?
6- you have to listen when ever ur bf talking about his son?
7- you don’t know what to have for dinner everyday
8- you realized you have been dependent too much on ur x-best fwen
9- you cant find all ur receipts for tax deduction
10- you start to neglect ur pet
11- you start thinking of how cool ur x-best fwen was
12- you feel like  u r having parasitic disease symthoms
13- all u wanna do is sleeeep sleeep and sleep
14- people care too much about ur life
15- you miss ur kacangs?
16- you have to drive 120km everyday 
17- you are a strange & complicated person? 
18- your bf is/was a married man?
19- you dont like rice
20- menjadi kekasih gelap …huahahhaha

the blue sapphire III

KL to BKK
as scheduled, we when back to Bangkok on 2nd April ’09…i had a fever…cant hardly move..all my joints were hurt… i have no choice but to go and smack the culprit down~ we stayed at the same Happy Hotel in Khoasan Road..the service is good..the room is clean…nothing much u can ask more for a Bath450/nite twin bedroom…

KHAOSAN TO DIT
we took a taxi to DIT..and got knocked off by the taxi driver  (i think)…it took us about 30 minutes from Khaosan Area to DIT and cost us Bath400..maybe he was right but the moment he turn off the meter and said if he used the meter it will cost us Bath 550!! i felt like pull the trigger at his head (i should keep ‘at least’ a 22 caliber with me all the time)…my fever was bad so we just dun bother about it…DIT is situated at an isolated area…it is the biggest modern building there…we got off and paid Bath400 (tak ikhlas)…

AT DIT
It was a huge white building…we walked straight to Center of Complaints, Internal Trade Building…we went to the receiptionist and showed the printed email from the Director, Mr Suchat Sinrat…they walked us to the office…we were welcome by Mr Suchat himself…(he s a big guy…with a big gold necklace)..he seems nice and helpful…he asked for all the documentation and the jewelry..then he started to make a phone call…we were asked to fill in a complaint form in details…while waiting, there s another foreign couple came in and asked for him too…i guess we might be in the same boat…

 INTERVIEW WITH MR SUCHAT
After Mr Suchat go thru our complaint form he didi interview us…

MS: What is the shop name?
WE: Erawan Lapidary
MS: How much do you want to refund?
WE: If possible, of course we want to have back 100%…after reading the blogs and comments from other victim, it is possibe to get back 100% refund or at least 80% refund with your help…
MS: well, you can try…but, yesterday Erawan Lapidary give only 90% refund..you can negotiate to get back 100% but if they refuse, tell
them u want not less than 90% back…
WE: ……… (speechless…)…ok…

THE NEGOTIATION
After 3 hours waiting, a young girl walked in and greet Mr Suchat politely….Mr Suchat called us to a meeting room…there are 4 of us including Mr Suchat…so, we start the negotiation..Mr Suchat doesnt say anything..not even a word thru out the negotiation..not even when we stucked in the conversation…or starting to raise voice…he sits at and listen…

Girl: what do you want? (very rude.….)
We: We want a refund..
Girl: how much u want?
We: Of course 100%
Girl: No 100% refund!! do u think i want to be here? i am here to buy back the jewelry..not 100% refund (she started to raise her voice..and i feel like to slap her in the face)
We: but we want back 100% refund..because we are not getting what we expected…
Girl: u sign the agreement..we not lying..no 100% refund!! how much u want?
WE: Yes, we did signed..We jewelry were out of our expectation…and we didnt said you are lying..we know its all in the ‘right’ loop..but we want back 100% refund because we are not satisfied..or maybe 99..99%…
Girl: Where is your brain?? what is 0.1% mean to you in bussiness??? (where is my brain??hellllooooo….where is your brain???maybe your brain been eaten by maggots!!)
WE: we dont know anything about bussiness..we just want to refund… (we try to not raise our voice or use any word which show they are BAD people who do BAD things..all should be nice and calm)
Girl: No NO NOOO….my boss wouldnt be happy if i give you 100% refund…
WE: ok…how if 98%?
Girl: NO
WE: 95%?
Girl: NOOOO…i didnt bring that much money to give you…

the negotiation went on and on without any help from Mr Suchat…and the girl keep on shouting at us…and being protective altho we didnt accuse her doing anything bad…we just want back our money…but, the girl was very firmed..she wont give us full refund even after 45 minutes….after discussing, we both agree to try 90%…well, that what Mr.Suchat said…”tell them not less than 90%”…..

WE: ok..90%?? not less than this…
Girl: letme think first… (after 62 sec)….ok  90%

she pulled out her big calculator and start to calculate…we know she s pretending….we already know something fishy happening under our nose …but, all that we care…we should get back at least 80-90% of our money back…we know we gonna get the 90% from her action…dahhhh…all these acting stuff is killing me….she pulled out all the documentation which all filled-in and asked us to agree on the refund and their services…huahahhahahah!!!! well, since we get back the 90% refund…we agree to sign…

Girl: u want cash or credit cheque?
WE: Cash please… ( of course we dun want to be stupid again.. ;p )

yeah…remember to ask for CASH….you wouldnt know what will happen if they give u credit cheque…she pulled out a bundle of money from an envolope and started to count…“i dun bring that much money to give you”…dahhh…who said that??? heheh…anyway, we were happy enough to get that 90% refund..at least something than nothing…after she hand over the money, Mr Suchat asked us to write in the complaint form (which we filled-in earlier) that we had received 90% refund in cash from Erawan Lapidary…mmmm…all for the KPI?  well, we  just do what ever they want..and i dont want to know what  behind all this…erawan lapidary..DIT…Police Tourist..

lesson learnt…and that is why mom always remind us….”DONT TALK TO STRANGER”..dun hate them for reminding u again and again…because they are totally right!! =”) so, anybody out there who need more info…just drop me a message..i willl try to help…owh..if you are still in BKK, u can call DIT hotline 1569… 

p/s:  thanks a lot to Mr Suchat and DIT members for your support =”) God bless you..

the blue sapphire II

we received a reply from DIT

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From: Compro <compro@dit.go.th>
Date: 2009/3/25
Subject: RE: Complaints-Bangkok Jewelery Scam-Need Help Urgently
To: Citra Kamboja

Dear

The buyer need to make complaint at my office:
Center of Complaints room 20301
Internal Trade Building
Ministry of Commerce
44/100 Nonthaburi 1 Rd. Muang district, Nonthaburi 11000
Tel. 025475356

Center of Complaints
DIT
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I am very happy to see their reply in my inbox… We did called and confirmed about it and we have make an appointment with Mr Suchat Sinrat, the Director…Mr.Pom, his secretary speaks very good English…makes everything a lot easier … “how long does it takes to settle this problem?”, Sulley asked.. “usually it will takes 1 day..please send email to remind us about the appointment with my Director”, Mr.Pom added..
Mr.Pom just make my day =”) his good assurance make me smile…cant wait till next week…hope everything will go smoothly…we booked the flight (i hope it worth it as the flight is double from last week…).. booked the hotel…print the map to DIT…just gonna bring 1 small knapsack and ready to go…hope DIT will open my heart again to like Thailand..hehhe…i dun even want to eat any Thai food anymore….(i know it silly…)..heheh

WHAT TO BRING TO DIT?
1- The Jewelry (most important!!! well, u dun want to keep ur nightmare…)
2- The paperwork and receipt
3- The original certificate
4- The CC receipt
5- Support document (as a prove about the Jewelry scamming…they will ask you how do you know it is a scam)

 Get all these ready and you are alright to hit bangkok again!!! this time with dignity and 1 mission…TO GET FULL REFUND…mmmm…i ll be happy enough if they gove us 80% as stated in the agreement…better than nothing….

p/s: “No one can make you jealous, angry, vengeful, or greedy / unless you let him.”

the blue sapphire

Incident: 21 March 2009 (Saturday)
Place: King Prajadhipok Museum, Bangkok
Time: 14.00 ++
Cheater: Erawan Lapidary

Backpacking in Bangkok was not as easy as I thought…after a long ride on the local bus from Ratchaburi, we end up lost in quiet road somewhere in Bangkok….dengan penat dan marah .…I wonder why Malaysian is so thoughtful of having the road sign, advertisement, map… everything in bahasa inggeris, bahasa Malaysia,  bahasa Cina & bahasa India….but in Thailand, everything in Thai !! Hardly find something written in Roman characters… Thai Chinese & Indian can read the Thai character … its fun if Malaysian Chinese & Indian can read Jawi =”) so we can fool the tourist, especially the lost backpacker …opsss….did I sound harsh here??…mmm…keep on reading and u know why…

With the map, we headed to the place where lots of monument …and from there we thought it might be much more easier to find the famous Khosan Road where our hotel located…the knapsack seems heavier and heavier after a long walk…nobody says anything…the road is quiet…no tourist…no traffic…few vehicles….as I was observing around, I saw one Caucasian guy was talking in Thai with few locals …”wow!! He can speak Thai..”, jerit hatiku ini.…but, I dun bother to go and ask him for the direction ..i just follow Sulley the ‘monster to be’ in front of me… (..Sulley dlm Monster Inc tu..)

AT THE  KING PRAJADHIPOK MUSEUM

After 30minutes walking, we reached the junction where the King Prajadhipok Museum is located…Sulley look at the map again to confirm our location…while busy with the map, suddenly a well English spoken Thai guy approached us… and the nightmare begin……

He greeted us and asked where we want to go..he suggested us to visit the idpendent monument…grand mountain …blablabla before he suggested to take the yellow TUK TUK with ‘Thai Government sticker’  ..all TUK TUK with the government sticker is 20 BHT flat fee anywhere you go in Bangkok as it is the Thai Government day…he said they announced it in TV last nite and asked us if we watched it or not…yeah i watched TV the night before..but even if they announced it on TV, i dun even understand a word!!! Then he recommended us a route so we could visit some interesting places before heading to Khosan Road…looking at the map, all the place he suggested are on the way to Khoasan Road and its only 20 BHT!!! We both agreed …ye la dah penat sangat…then he called up a TUK TUK and asked the driver to bring us to LUCKY BUDDHA ..he said it is a ‘must go’ place as it only open once a year!!! Well, he works for the government he must knows lots of things.. The Tuk tuk driver  kept bowing  and appeared super friendly! We got on the tuk tuk, thinking how lucky we are to meet such a deal.… before I ride the TUK TUK, I glanced at the wind screen..honestly I don’t see ‘the government sticker’..but, my legs are too tired to have a second thought… the government guy remind us  “don’t pay more!!20 BHT only..not more.”  And we set off….

 AT THE  LUCKY BUDDHA TEMPLE

we reached the LUCKY BUDDHA, a remote temple which not found anywhere in the map…strange…he said the lucky Buddha open only once a year…and there is nobody else but us….and it doesn’t looks like a special Wat to me… if it is so special, why it is soooo simple… I dun see any monk…or Buddha sculpture or any scanted sticks…helllooo??..its LUCKY BUDDHA day…all I see was an empty room and periuk belanga at one spot…sunyi…as we are about to walk out the place, a guy with a broom asked us if we were there for the LUCKY BUDDHA and showed us a place to wait as a ceremony is going on upstairs…mmm….”strange la…ada upacara sembahyang tapi senyap…” we are not Buddhist, but to show our respect, we agreed to wait..someone with a sunglass and cigarette was waiting too..we headed to an empty benches not far away from him..and suddenly he said…”NO NO…that are the Monk’s benches..they will sit there when the ceremony finish…come come sit here…”…cigarette in a temple?? Not a normal thing to see la…  

He started making small talk, asking us where we are from, where we stay and when we are leaving Thailand.. he introduced himself and said he s from Australia and now in Bangkok for a holiday…hehehe…well, he doesn’t have any Australian twang tho…but, he explained (without being asked) that he work for Thai Embassy in Australia and since it is the LUCKY BUDDHA day, he would want to pray before head back to Australia…and then he started to tell us about this annual gem sale..he said since Thailand is very famous for its blue sapphire, now is a good time to buy since it will be TAX free and sell it at cost price.. its held  only once a year for 1 week and it is the last day today… He added, the thai government is very strict on this gem sale and is monitoring it closely, thus everyone is only allowed to buy 3 pieces and we are supposed to buy it only for personal use and not to resale.  He mentioned that he will buy at least 1 piece every year and bring to sell up to 130% profit! He suddenly asked us “You know Poh Kong??” heheh..of course la kan…he told us he was in Genting Highland gambling and lost all his money, and sold one of his blue sapphire ring to Poh Kong..he managed to sell 80% from the original price  ..not much, but enough to cover him up…He then pulled out this receipt from his bag for a set of Lady Diana Blue Sapphire…he said the Lady D set is very famous and can easily sell as long as you have the original cert… “why we can easily go and sell this jewelry?”, I did asked…”owh, the thailand blue sapphire is the most famous in the world…its very beautiful”, he explained…I look the ring on his right ring finger…its yellow gold with dark blue rectangular cutting gem with lil diamond around….not my taste…but maybe for a jiji like him..ok la kot…”buruk je…maybe yg lawa smua dia jual sbb kuat judi…heheh”, hatiku berkata…I dun know how to determine a good quality gems…but I know his ring was dirty…hehhe..but maybe, he s a no bling bling guy… he choose not to wear the real bling bling stone…

After 30 min of chit chat, a guy came into the temple…”are you here for the LUCKY BUDDHA?”, he asked and make a long sigh after we said they have some ceremony going on and we have to wait..”eh…he looks familiar…I think this is the guy I saw in the alley talking in Thai”, I comforting myself.. at least some other tourist are at the same isolated place for the LUCKY BUDDHA…the ‘Australian wanna be’ guy is still encouraging us to go and take a look at the gems exhibition…and suddenly the German guy (as he claimed) joined in and tell us he just came back the place…and was a member…he will come and visit Bangkok every year for the gems sale and will bring back to germany and sell it up to 200% profit!! Mmm…he s here every year for the gems sale??.that explained why he can speak Thai…both of them were changing sories about the sale and urged us to go as the place will be close in an hour time…I look at the watch…its 2.00pm, and we didn’t even go anywhere around Bangkok yet.…since the ceremony doesn’t seem to end, we decided to leave the temple and take a look at the gems place…

AT THE  GEMS EXPORT STORE

The Tuk Tuk Driver sent us to this aged 2 storey shophouse along the side of the road…strange (again..)…no one is there…  I am surprised to see the building.. It does not look like an annual event to me at all….and no security…only a stray dog lying tiredly nearby…but somehow we just went it. Inside the shop was gloomy and old looking… there were 3-4 ladies, a fierce looking guy staring at the monitor supervising and a well groomed guy who I guess to be the manager. .  We were shown sets of jewelry in 4 different designs, including the Lady D Blue sapphire set which was very posh and expensive. The manager successfully convinced us and we end up bought a 102,000 BHT set and a ring ( sila la convert to RM…RM10,400!!) without any hesitation .. and despite all my fishy thought from start…while the transaction was in process, the manager offered us a complimentary ride in Bangkok….i was happy…but,  “eh…kenapa la pulak smua2 ni macam senang je…its too good to be true…”, and I giggled ..Try not to think bad…

After 15minutes waiting, the lady told us that the driver met with an accident. However, she will bring us to Chatuchak market as it is the only one open in the weekend to send the parcel off as it is valuable stuff and dangerous to keep while backpacking..”accident ke…betul ke …macam lame excuse la plak…”, terdetik dihatiku ini…. we got on the cab (I know its stupid….)

AT CHATUCHAK MARKET

at the post office, I saw one parcel with the same size, same wraping address to France…after sent off the parcel, the lady said she had to go back…and wish us good luck…mmmm….helloooo, where is our free city tour thingy?? We did ask her and she gave us 100 BHT to go back to Khosan road by ourselves instead…we were too tired to argue….we took the money and start to explore the busy market..
We don’t really talk…I was tired…I dun do much bargaining… nothing seems interested anymore except the JEWELRY!!! I can smell something fishy…After 2 hrs, we head back to Khoasan Road..in the taxi…

 Boo: you rasa tak sebenarnye kite kena tipu?
Sulley: ( after 10 sec…) ha ah…
Boo: kan? I rasa tak kan la accident kot..lame excuse..and I think I met the German guy somewhere talking in Thai masa sesat..i think they are all link …
Suley: ……….. tu la, I think mmg kite kena tipu…we got to chek in the net and log a police report
Boo: ok… I think we need to block our CC too …

AT KHOSAN ROAD

The moment we type ERAWAN LAPIDARY ….”SHIT!!!” yes…we were SCAM!!!! Nothing much we can say then finding the solution of what to do to get our money back..we read lots of blogs and traveller’s website about this silly jewelry scam…It’s a lil too late…but at least we know that we are not alone…mmm…after reading all the blogs and traveller’s websites….i just dun trust anyone anymore in Bangkok….some said that this Jewelry scam have been running in Bangkok since 1990!!! And no action have been taken because they are not lying or sell fake jewelry…the process is in the right law loop…just the Jewelry was over price…and they don’t force you….the ‘buyer’ agreed and sign everything with their own will and consent  … sad sad sad…. And it was more depressing as our flight back to Malaysia was 17.10 the next day…
So we got to be quick and do as much as we could with the time constraint…

WHAT DO WE DO?

1-Call to cancel the CC (the customer service center is 24 hrs)      

2-       Log a police report ( we went to Khaosan Road Police Station…no one care to help…they just laughed and asked us to call 1155 the Tourist Police…no time to be upset with the police…maybe they got corrupted too with the Jewelry Scam Group)

3-       Call Tourist Police (1155 is the emergency hotline…works 24hrs)

4-       Log a report at Tourist Police (we called.. and they asked us to come to their office and talk personally to the officer in charge..)

Tourist Police head office
2107 Bangkok Tower, New Petchburi Road,
Bangkapi, Huay Kwang, Bangkok, 10310,
Tel: 02 308 0333, 308 0892-4 or 1155.

 

The next day, we logged a report at the Tourist Police…they can’t help as the jewelry was already shipped to Malaysia….frustrating….we will have to get the Jewelry and then they will try to help…at least to get back 80% as stated the “agreement” signed by us at the silly shop… The Tourist Police Officer was friendly and make you tell them your silly scamming story although they already hear the same thing like 1 million times…but, they end up saying “we will help you..but we can’t do much ..u signed and agreed everything..u r adult and can think wisely…and they are not against the law….and this is what these people do for a living…..u shud have found the website on the Bangkok scamming earlier.. we are sorry..” …nice one,huh!! That is what these people do for a living?? And we are the generous stupid naive people who willingly fall into the scamming…heheh…viva Thailand!!! We were a lil upset…and the officer said “please dun give me that look”..(OMG…m speechless…she expect us to smile and laugh at our stupidity?) After 30 minutes dealing with the officer, asked us to go back and take bring the jewelry before they could help us to settle this matter…

Anyway, I received the parcel yesterday (dun bother to open it…)…feeling embarrass and stupid…and now we are arranging to  go back to Bangkok to settle this up and get back our money…maybe this time to Ministry of Commerce… The buyer needs to make complaint at this office:

Center of Complaints room 20301
Internal Trade Building
44/100 Nonthaburi 1 Rd. Muang district
Nonthaburi 11000
Tel. 025475356

I ll update tomorrow..we sent an email to the Ministry of Commerce<compro@dit.go.th> and still waiting for their reply..

hey, detox to revitalize u

i have a hectic schedule to keep myself chaotic…beside my 8~6 daily work walking around in uniform and heels, gossiping for self confidence..hehehhe, reading (which more on horoscope and angelina jolie) etc… i balance my life with…..

Monday: 2 hours Yoga class
Tuesday: 2 hours Body Balance class
Wednesday: 1 hour horse riding
Thursday: TV day, laundry
Friday: Meeting with friends
Saturday: 8~ 11 horses riding or 1 hour Pilates
Sunday: 1 hour horse riding or sleep all day! ,laundry

It looks like a very healthy life style..but i wreck it with hearing evil…swearing…Marlboro Light…Nescafe 3in1 Original…mamak’s teh tarik…sirap bandung johor…Maggi Asam Laksa…Mee Goreng Sedap..McD Fillet-O-Fish..Wendy’s Shrimp burger…nasik lemak tiga segi…nasik daun pisang…goreng pisang…blab la blab la bla… =”( it will make me bad for myself if i list it alllll….anyway, I think I need something to boost up my mind..body and soul…i am FADING…hik hik hik…mmm…I think DETOXing is the right thing to start with..let me share with you what I found in http://health.yahoo.com… Very interesting and informative…towards a healthy happy life!! =”)

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At the arrival of spring it is a natural instinct to cast off the winter blues and feel renewed. It is also a great time to eliminate the toxins that have been burdening your system, leaving you sluggish and fatigued. Make a clean sweep with the 5-step detox listed below!
Why you need to spring clean your body Your body is naturally equipped with a self-cleaning process. But too much sugar, caffeine, processed foods, stress, and too little exercise can slow the body’s natural detox function to a slow pace. And then your body can’t clean itself when it is put up against the increasing number of harmful and toxic substances in the environment.
Toxins come in many forms: pesticides in produce, formaldehyde in carpets and cosmetics, PCBs from plastic containers, dioxins from bleached paper products, and more. Your body will process and eliminate some of the hordes of chemicals that enter, but overflow gets stored in the liver, lungs, kidneys, fat cells, intestines, blood stream, and skin—which can result in chronic illnesses down the road. When you undergo a detox, you get these toxins out of your system.
How do you know if you need a detox? You know you’re suffering from toxic overload if you are experiencing fatigue, memory decline, difficulty focusing, allergies and infections, irritability, anxiety and depression, difficulty with weight gain and weight loss, muscle and joint pain or weakness, skin rashes and outbreaks, recurrent yeast and fungal infections, constipation, diarrhea, abdominal bloating, and indigestion. Most people report vast improvement in their symptoms after a detox. At first, you may feel a little fuzzy because of the toxins being released. However, when you stick with it, you will begin to feel more alert, energized, and full of vitality. At-Home Detox Start small! Begin with a one-day program and gradually increase to one week or more. Here are 5 steps to a daily detox that will gently cleanse your body:

1. Start the Detox Day Right - First thing in the morning, drink one lemon squeezed in 12 ounces of warm filtered water. Lemon activates your liver to release toxins and helps to cleanse and move the roughage that stays behind in your intestines. • Take acidophilus or a probiotic supplement. Acidophilus is one of the many “good” bacteria and yeasts known as the probiotics. Probiotics balance our intestinal functions, helping to break down food and control the “bad” bacteria that is also in your system—all of which optimizes the detoxification process. Always take probiotics on an empty stomach.
2. Your Detox Meals – These meals are designed to jump-start your body into becoming healthier. • Breakfast: Eat oat bran cereal, brown rice, or any other whole grain cereal as long as it is unbleached and does not contain any added sugar or chemicals. Pair with unflavored soy milk. • Lunch or Dinner: Eat any combination of beans, brown rice, oat bran, vegetables, and organic chicken, turkey, or soy-products. When you eat, notice how your food affects you. You should feel satisfied and energized. If you feel tired and sluggish, try eating smaller meals so that you don’t overwhelm your digestion and interfere with the detoxification process.
3. Eat Green to Spring into Health - The green pigment in plants, chlorophyll, is structurally similar to the hemoglobin in the human body—the iron-containing element in blood. It increases red blood cell production and improves oxygenation, detoxification, and circulation. Be sure to eat several servings of fresh green vegetables every day during your detox. Try this super-cleansing broth and juice as a quick way to up your veggie intake. Detox Broth: Add as many of these ingredients as you can into a large pot of filtered water: collards, Swiss chard, kale, mustard greens, cabbage, dandelion, Brussels sprouts, daikon radish, watercress, seaweed, shitake mushrooms, cilantro, garlic, leeks, fresh fennel, anise, fresh ginger, and turmeric. Boil until all ingredients are soft. You can make in a large batch and refrigerate for up to three days. Detox Juice: Juice the following together: Aloe vera juice (which can be found in most health food stores), apples, asparagus, beets (including greens), cabbage, carrot and carrot greens, celery, cucumbers, and parsley. You can also purchase vegetable juice from the store, but be sure that it has no added salt or chemicals.
4. Supplement Your Detox – Take a daily supplement of 1 tablespoon of flax seed oil, walnut oil, or deep-sea fish oil. • Green Tea is a strong antioxidant, and a great beverage choice for your detox. Be sure to drink decaffeinated green tea. • Dandelion and Milk Thistle both protect and restore the liver. According to Chinese medicine, the liver is most active in the detoxification process during spring. • Ginger is a bowel and kidney cleanser. Make yourself tea from fresh ginger root during your detox. 
5. Take an Invigorating Herbal Soak –  Soak for 20 minutes in a revitalizing herbal bath. Help draw out toxins by infusing your bath water with eucalyptus, wintergreen, peppermint, fennel, cinnamon, and epsom salts. Spring may be the best time to cleanse your body, but you don’t have to wait until spring to start. Detoxification and cleansing is a healthy maintenance program for all seasons.

May you stay healthy, live long, and live happy! -Dr. Mao > Thanks Dr.Mao =”)